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May 10, 2004

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So i've survived another year. I certainly don't feel any older. i got a ton of books from friends and family. a whole box full. so i'll be able to spend my summer days in the hot, sticky, rank air of my bedroom in seclusion.

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and i get it, i really do. i'm right there with him. but when i put that book down, man, do i ever feel like shit. here's a guy who had nothing but failure and misery most of his life living in cleaveland, of all places, who manages to keep going every day; to get out of bed, make breakfast, and not kill himself. i probably shouldnt' find that impressive but i do. the one comic that struck me the hardest was just him and his thoughts on a monday morning. waking up tense and nervous and jerking off to try to feel a bit better, only to feel empty afterwards. being unable to get out of the tub. not wanting to go to work. hating his breakfast. hating the people on the way to work.

but he still goes. and manages to cheer himself up, on top of that.

so why can't i? i've got it so much better. work is generally fun for me. i have a car and an ipod to keep me warm and entertained. i don't even really have to work when i get there. just pay attention.

i had a one credit java course this semester. there were two assignments: one program for the midterm, and an advanced version of it for the final. we've been given a large majority of the code. the due dates have been repeatedly extended. the final one is due tommorow.

i've done neither.

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but i'm not doing them. and i'm not planning on doing them. as soon as i start thinking about doing them, i'm overcome with a sort of anxious, fearful depression. it's probably some kinda fear of failure or something, but i don't even want to get into that. it's much simpler to just label it as laziness, which, no matter what, it is, and berate myself for it.

if i could figure out what it is that i need -- that's holding me back -- i'd do it in a second. my life is sorely lacking in something. i think "adventure" is a too vague but it's in the ballpark. writing like this always makes me feel better. but it's only for a bit. the same shit keep happening and i'm no further along.

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